Choleric child

Lily didn't go to school today. Not because she's sick, or was sick, or is getting sick. Not because I'm sick or Jason or Noah. We're all okay (knock on wood). Not because of the weather (although that wind really is starting to pick up now).

Apparently she didn't go because she didn't want to go to the bathroom and (according to Jason) was tired.* So she pitched fits, refused to be moved, and wasn't spurred to action by any threats I made (and oh, believe me, I made them). Basically she decided she wasn't going to school.. and she didn't. She's 4.

I'm so angry that she got away with that. And angry at myself. I made a lot of threats that I didn't follow through with, including that if she didn't use the bathroom and get dressed that I was taking her to school in her pajamas and she could just pee her pants. (Her pajamas were basically regular clothes.. and I'm sure she wouldn't have wet herself at school.. she would have used the toilet eventually. So don't think I'm that mean.) But, she just screamed "NO!" at me- or something, who can remember, she screamed so many things at me this morning.. including that she hated me.

(She actually didn't go to the bathroom until about 2:00. And only because I threatened to throw the muffins she wanted out the window and run them over. She screamed at me some more. But she went to the bathroom, sat on the toilet, and peed. Seriously, the threat of running over muffins is what got her? I wish I had known that at 7am.. woulda saved me a lot of trouble.)

Soo.. she's not using her iPad today. And she's not playing video games. Not even when daddy gets home. Of course, when she eventually realized I was serious, that didn't go over too well. And there was more yelling. At me. And crying.

And she didn't even care when I told her that it was WAY more of a punishment for me than it was for her. She just yelled over me. And stood on her head while she did it.

That's true anger.


[* Yes, of course, I very calmly made sure there wasn't something going on at school that was making her not want to go. And THEN she got in trouble for her behavior.]