I was going to write about how I'm no longer going to BlogHer'12.. that I sold my ticket 3 weeks ago, cancelled my hotel reservation today, and didn't win a contest that would have set me up there for free.. but I don't feel like it. I'm still a little too.. crushed. Crushed because I couldn't justify spending $1000 of my own money for whatever BlogHer is to everyone else.
Believe me, I went in 2010.. I know what it's like. And I'm sure it's going to be even more like that in 2012. I went to a BlogHer party. I went to private brand events. And I got swag. Lots and lots and lots of it- but not $1000 worth. But that was okay, because I went for free.
So whatever- this year I'm not going. Whatever. I'm not going to talk about it. (Even though I am.)
I took it out of my Google calendar today. After I cancelled my hotel reservation. And that was the end of it. I'll get over it. It's not even close to the end of the world. But.. I just wanted to go, ya know? I felt like I deserved to go. It's been a rough.. amount of time. It still is.
BlogHer surely wouldn't fix anything. But maybe I would've had fun. Even if I'd have been anxious. About everything. Leaving my car in a garage. Riding trains. Being in New York City. Elevators.
I used to like to travel. Then I had kids. And now the boogeyman is lurking behind every leaf. So it's just as well. There are enough leaves in my own city, I'm not going to be adding all the leaves in New York too.
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